No, but really, it's hard to decide how I should feel right now. I'm sad because I'm leaving my first real job - and a good job, one that I actually enjoy. I have an amazing team of coworkers that I will sorely miss - we all have a similar work ethic and a "no drama" attitude - and I know that's hard to come by. They've become my family over the past year, and it's so hard to just walk away as if they meant nothing to me.
I'm also sad to be leaving what I've called "home" for my entire life. It's been such a blessing to be so close to my parents - close enough to call ahead a few hours in advance and be home on time for dinner, or to come home often enough to do all of my laundry and play the Wii with Mom instead of sitting alone at the laundromat all night. I'll miss the weekends at my parents' house on the Mississippi - there's nothing more relaxing than sitting out on the patio overlooking the river with a cold beer and some good music. These are the things that I know I won't come close to in New York.
On the other hand, I have so much to look forward to - I'm moving to another "world" - I can't wait to finally be living in the same zip code as Andy, and to take in the culture of the city life. I'm not a fool - I know it will be hard, both financially and emotionally, but I've reached a point in my life where I truly believe I'm up to the challenge. Maybe it's the stress of moving and figuring out everything that needs to be finished in the next week and a half, but for some reason, I'm not scared. Any normal human being put in this position should be - I guess I'm just an odd duck. Ask me again in a week - I may have changed my mind on that subject by then. :)
Back to packing - tomorrow is my last night "on the town" with the girls from work, and then it's good-bye to Minnesota. Thanks for the memories!
Malice
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